Having a coffee

Sitting on my bed...Thinking about the future and wondering where I am going and to what God is leading me.
My internship is over in a month and a half and I don't know what I will be doing after that.
I'm living on the first floor at some friend's place in Lille (France), my internship is teaching me a lot and brings me to places I would not have expected...
But right now I have so many questions...
I can't have a scholarship to take online classes (which I wanted to do for a few quarters at least)
I don't have any money to start a bar ministry...
I don't really want to work in a "secular" job...
What am I supposed to do with that. I know that God will provide, will lead me and show me his will...but right now I don't see anything, right now I'm in a fog with no concrete direction.

sorry

I'm sorry for the lack of updates on my blog, if you're reading this, thanks for remaining faithful.

It's been now almost 5 weeks since I've been back from California. The first weeks were really hard for me is some ways and really encouraging in some other ways (see my last post).

I'm doing my internship in my church right now and God is using that experience in a powerful way in my life. I learn to love people more, to meet them where they're at in life, pray for them and share who they are and who I am. Last sunday I preached for the second time in my life. The topic assigned by my pastor was : "what does it mean to be a Christian today." And to be honest I hated him for a few days after that.

Anyway, it's a question that has invaded my everyday life. What do people around me see in me? What is it supposed to bring in my everyday life? Do people know I'm a christian just because I don't drink, I read my Bible everyday or go to Church every sunday morning? Or do people see that I am Christian for things deeper and more obvious than that?

I preach a transformative gospel... do I live it?

I preach a never ending-deeper than the ocean-ready to give his life-... love do I live it?

An other side of my internship is to meet with people in my church who are at that point in their faith and its expression where they need more... where they need something different.

I'm gonna form a reflection group with who we're gonna think about other ways to do a service, to do worship,... it's pretty exciting to talk with them and see what we could do in the future.

I miss California and think about my friends, brothers and sisters over there everyday. I hope I can come back soon.